I Resolve ........

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Unless you have been in outer space for the last month or so, you know that the new year starts tomorrow. Time to usher in 2009 with champagne and streamers and of course, a new year's resolution. 

Anyone want to make a wild guess what my resolution is? Anyone? 

I'm sure John is hoping that my resolution this year involves some sort of money management on my part, specifically my shopping habits on Amazon.com. Sorry, honey. Dang, you can find anything on Amazon. And it will be on sale. And maybe even free shipping. Now that's what I call real money management. 

Dr. S., my rheumatologist, would want me to make not one, but several resolutions. I know that they would have to include nasty things such as:

• Reducing my BMI,
  
• To promise to quit messing around with my medication dosages (note to readers: DON'T MESS AROUND WITH MEDICATION DOSAGES!),
• To make a sincere effort to get that 24 hour urine lab test completed that was ordered six months ago. 
  
• To bring better quality chocolates next visit.

I'll try, Dr., I will. But that's not my resolution, sorry.

If Sammy and Maggie could speak human, they would demand that I resolve to take them on more and longer walks. I'm sure doggie treats would also factor in as well. It's probably a good thing that they only speak in soulful, paw-on-the-knee-type begging. 

Could my kids view me as anything other than perfect? Of course not. I'll bet they wouldn't have any suggestions for my resolution this year. Just indulge me on this one. I have to have a few delusions.

No, my resolution this year is not to make a resolution. Sound rebellious? Yes, indeed. My life is already limited in so many ways - by my energy levels, by the effects of brain fog, and by side effects of my medications. I'm sure I could think of more limitations but let's not go down self-pity avenue right now. 

My resolution to not make resolutions is a commitment to be just a little nicer to myself, to enjoy those positive aspects of my life right now, and to cut myself a little slack when I don't measure up to some self-imposed expectations. 

Happy New Year, everyone! Here's to a healthy, happy 2009.